i've been lying in the bed fr the past two days , i don't blame NDP school training fr my sickness its just that , i'm tired . that's all . being suspected fr h1n1 is not a good thing , it worries me and my parents . when i was in bed , i did alot of thinking . i was thinking , imagine if i wasn't schooling . its such a bore fr having a long mc , seriously . i want to be pink in health . ya allah , keep me away frm sickness . amin
i was eating my chicken soup , i was thinking , what i did was wrong , i might hurt someone relationship . abang _____ , much apology . i was suppose to help , but i did different thing , even thou he said , lupakan jek lah wawa . but yet still . is this what i wanted todo ? did i do it on purpose ? or just being dump ? my choice is just being dump , abang said your shocked with my thinking , and i said , i was too in that night conversation when the both of us were sick . but now , it prove to be wrong . whats wrong with me ? when can i grow up ? help me someone , just help . i'm drowning in my sorrows . i act like one happy girl but deep deep inside , i'm sad , sometimes , i just burst out and keep on mentioning i'm sad , rewind time and you'll notice , no one care . only a handful , i'm not needing attention , but i need someone , to tell me , "hey , wawa , smile , cause , that's the only way to make you happy ." anyone ? or maybe encouragement of words ? i'm waiting fr the time when i'm free from problems . living happy-ly with my dearest family , crew .
dearest besf , imy , call me , text me asap (!)
"when you feel like giving up , remember why you held on for so long in the first place ."
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